Archive for October, 2008

At the beginning of the year
I went to the Doctors, cause i was having horrible headaches
EVERYDAY!
getting borderline migraine some days
The doc said i HAD 'High Blood Pressure'
and put me on the 'Pill of Insanity' hehe
this little tiny pill turned me into
a person i am not.
I felt alone,
withdrawn
lower self esteem than i already am
in other words...think of the worst you have ever felt on the inside
and that was me....for months
I decided to pray about it, and felt i should
just Stop taking the pill...God would heal me!
I had people tell me once your on high blood pressure medicine you can
NEVER get off it....silly people
It has been a good 6 months since i have Stopped taking it and i have
very limited headaches
and even today  i was in Smiths grocery store with the boys
and decided to take my blood pressure
it was 124 over 77
which is amazing...6 months ago it was
ranging around 145 over 80
God is Good All the Time

Just another amazing aspect of my life thanks to My Lord and Savior

So this year i finally did what i have always wanted to, and Made my children’s costumes by hand

I know….WOW

Here they are As follows

When a man’s an empty kettle, he should be on his metal, and yet i’m torn apart.

It’s sad believe me missy, when your born to be a sissy, without the vim and nerve.

I will update this more later when Rudy (scarecrow) and I (wicked witch of the west) have our costumes ready and done..

There was a Little Girl, Who had a Little Curl, Right In the Middle of Her Forehead, And when she was good she was VERY VERY good, but when she was bad she was HORRID.

Ian trying to write…no he did not write his name and mom….i did

Him looking so sweet and clean after a bath…

A tree in Parker, last time i was there….the photo does not even capture how amazing the sunset really was…

Today was one of those days, that like most went by

at a very fast pace….

Not till it was nearly over did i stop and realize that is had been a very good one

The past weeks have been trying to say the least with dealing with my beloved children

Unfortunately i believe the oldest is still dealing with grief issues…missing her much loved

Uncle Joey.

Sitting in church on Sunday…she sat with me during both services instead of going to SS class

and during the alter call of the second service she started crying that she missed Joey.

I don’t know if the combination of being with me and the setting being one of

softness and soul searching that it brought the tears to the surface.

But it breaks my heart to see her that way…

All during the day she will stop me and ask me if i will ‘hold’ her

as in if she is going to bed, she asks, ‘when you wake up, wake me up early so you can hold me’

leaving for school….’will you sit and hold me after school?’

on and on and so forth.

Every day for the past 3 weeks she has don’t this….i am of sorts getting used to it

and finding out what works for her….sitting with her for 4 mins even though i am in the throws

of cooking dinner, washing clothes, bathing boys, and so on….if i take the time

to sit just for a few mins, kiss on her, listen to her and love on her, all will be well.

IF I DO NOT….All HELL will break loose….crying, screaming, throwing of one’s self on the floor…

(her not me) although sometimes i wish i could.

Now for all of those who will say, Just spank the little brat!

Let me tell you, WE HAVE! we have broke spoons over her butt…we have locked her in her room….taken away special things from her…one night Daddy took the boys to the circus but she had to stay home with me….not going to SS class. Being grounded to her room all afternoon after school.

You name it, we tried it….The poor thing i think is afraid i will leave her…that i don’t love her as much as

her brothers…and i don’t think she is good enough.

How sad is it that a Five year old has these kinds of thoughts going on in her brain….she should

be thinking about dressing her cabbage patch dolls up…or the latest sponge bob episode.

Not deep thoughts of life, and dying.

My sweet little child has a tender heart for God, full of love and compassion

I pray i can be a strong Mother who can mold her into the Kind of Woman she needs to be.

Wow…suddenly my fingers have slowed down, i really didn’t even mean to write all of that, but i guess it needed to come out…

What i started to say was….i stopped towards the end of the day…and realized…it was a GOOD day!

I was happy….the kids were good…i was full of love for my husband…i even washed a load of laundry.

God is so good…

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.”-Psalms 51:12

I was looking up passages on Biblegateway.com and they have the verse of the day….and it just brought me hope and joy for my day~!

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.”- Psalm 51:12

How beautiful these words are to us….There are so many things going on in these times where we

NEED God to Sustain us..I know i need it daily.

Rudy is in the process of getting a new office, he has been having problems with vandalism, the other night out van alarm went off…and a couple days later the back seat of his motorcycle was slashed..

He noticed today that the front tire…the $200 front tire, someone tried cutting that as well, but was un -  successful at it.

Something he wished he had know before driving to Flagstaff yesterday.

We Know God will protect us, but God also gave us brains to figure things out as well.

The week this all happened a Friend of ours asked him if he wanted to rent part of his office cause it’s really big, he went and checked it out and ended up looking at one upstairs from the friends and its bigger than the one we were thinking of moving into next month that is next door to the one we are in now and its $25 less a month utilities are still included.

So i would say that was God telling us something.

I just pray for wisdom and understanding, and also for God to deal with this person that was vandalizing our property.

Has it finally arrived?   My Beloved cold and chilly weather. Oh how i love thee

How i love to sit outside, feeling the breeze on my face….watching my children, cold little fingers riding

their bikes, digging in the dirt, playing till their hands won’t work any more.

The time has come for me to plant my patunias…build my flower bed and sand box….so many

projects that were waiting till the weather broke….

I must wake up early tomorrow and sit cuddled on my poarch swing and sip hot tea and

soak in the glorious day…sing praises to God and thank him for EVERYTHING He has done for us.

How greatful i am for all He has done, my family is whole, well and happy

I have a home, a car, a husband who loves me and takes care of me….3 children that amaze me daily.

A dog that is slowly becoming amazing…he still has him moments of brain lapses.

2 cats who love to cuddle with me in bed…

and 2 birds who fill my home with pretty chirping.

Does it get any better than that?

Well maybe a Dr pepper and some starbucks chocolate might top it all off….hehe

My find from last Saturdays escapades….

My beloved set of books by Winston Churchill…How I love them and adore them…..sigh

Mother’s Prayer

Dear Lord, it’s such a hectic day, With little time to stop and pray, For life’s been anything but calm, Since you called on me to be a mom. Running errands, matching socks, Building dreams with building blocks. Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes, And other stuff that children lose. Fitting lids on bottled bugs, Wiping tears and giving hugs. A stack of last week’s mail to read, So where’s the quiet time I need? Yet when I steal a minute Lord, Just at the sink or ironing board, To ask the blessings of your grace, I see then in my small one’s face, That you have blessed me all the while, As I stop to kiss that precious smile. …Author Unknown

Have you ever heard People say to Listen to the Voice of Jesus?

I have always wanted to have an ear to what He is telling me, Sometimes i can be a little hard

of hearing, So i always tell Him to speak up when talking to me.

I have maybe had a handfull of times where i ‘Think’ i heard God’s voice….

I get feelings of things, where i think i should do things…sometimes not really understanding why.

I don’t always listen to those feelings, but after today i sure will.

On Saturday when my Bud Kate and i went yardsaling, we stopped at this house,

we didnt buy anything, but had a lovely chat with the nice ladies and Gent there.

One lady asked Kate what Parfume or lotion she was wearing, It was mine, which i thought was

the ‘Midnight Pomogranit’

Last night i walked into my kitchen and saw the bottle, and it wasnt the kind i thought it was.

I felt so bad, cause it seemed like the lady really wanted to get some of her own.

So while in the shower this morning getting ready for church, i felt that i ‘Needed’ to take my bottle

to that lady.

I stopped by before church, but it was right before 8am and nobody answered, so i went back by

after church.

The lady who liked it did not live there, it was her friend. She was amazed that i had come back to give it to her.

So took down my name and Phone number so if she wanted to call me.

then she proceeds to tell me that this nice woman just found out she has a ‘Brain Tumor’

Wow, it hit me hard…..there was a reason to why i felt i should take it to her….

I Pray she enjoys my gift, even though meager to say the least, a half used bottle of lotion.

But for her to know, i care and i will be praying for her.

ALWAYS Listen to that still small voice!!!